“You call me out upon the waters…”

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Here is another post written by Helene, from her time in Thailand and Cambodia. 

“You call me out upon the waters, the great unknown, where feet may fail.”  

 –“Oceans,” by Hillsong

As I’ve listened to this song the last few weeks, God has been speaking to me. To walk on water with him. To make the impossible possible. God is challenging me to push my boundaries, think bigger, and reach for the extraordinary. God doesn’t exist in our definition of normal. God is God, and I’m not. My feet may fail, but I’ll trust in Him to guide me.

We have now been in Cambodia, in the village of Pouk, for almost two weeks. Our days include teaching English, computer and music at the school, plus Bible teaching, kids ministry, gardening, and helping out with the Justice Water project. I’m teaching an “English for Beginner’s” class. It’s amazing to see the students improve and their eagerness to learn. God is really revealing himself through the kids. Both here and in Thailand, people around me showed God’s goodness. Just by letting their light shine.

kids-pouk-web(Photos: Eiliv Søyland)

To be honest I’ve struggled to see what God has been doing through me during this outreach. I know that what we’re doing is good, that we’re helping and showing God’s light in a dark world, but I’ve been so eager for more. This desire is a good thing, but it has also blinded me to see the things that are actually happening. God has reminded me that he has given me that desire- to know him and see great things happen. Now, I’ve realized we  ARE making a difference, and that God is working through our team, but I still long for more. I still long for miracles to take place, so that Gods name will be glorified.

Cambodia is a country with awful history. In 1970, a civil war broke out, and 1/4 of the population was killed under the Pol Potts regime. This had severe consequences. One of these is slavery – child labour, physical work and prostitution. We have also noticed a difference in the spiritual atmosphere here. During these weeks, we’ve all felt challenged to stay joyful. Honestly, it’s been a long time since I’ve felt as annoyed and angry as I was the first days we were here. For no special reason. My attitude needed some serious work. Luckily for me, and the rest of my team, God is greater than any bad mood. But there’s still challenges- every day is a battle. But we’re all warriors of Christ, and with his armor, we’ll always be ready to fight the spiritual battle. The armor does not cover the back, so God doesn’t give an opportunity to run away from this battle. My weapon for attack is His word (Eph 6). This makes me eager to know more of what God says, and get all the knowledge I can.

Every morning I need to make a choice – how is my day going to look? I’ve figured out that it is best to lay it in God’s hands. And to quote again from this week’s song: “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you will call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith would be made stronger. In the presence of my Savior.” This is my prayer and my wish. For God to lead me to and through things that seem impossible for the human eye. To live in his presence and to be guided by the world’s best guide. Because that is when I’m going to see the most interesting things. Who is guiding you?

Love from Cambodia.

Helene, DTS Student